3 weeks

It's only been 3 weeks; 3 weeks of perfection with it's little bumps; 3 weeks of being with my best friend. I can't believe that it's ONLY been 3 weeks because it feels like it's been months. Today was really screwed up though. Last week, John asked my mom if we could go to the movies today; she said yes and so did my dad (which never happens). So John called me today to make sure that we could still go to the movies, and what does my mom say? "oh, well we need to save money, blah, blah, blah..." which is a bunch of bull. and then after that, about an hour after, she comes home with my lil bro from his tennis match and we go out to get food... I was so lost because if we are trying "to save money" then why the hell did we go out to eat??? it pissed me off so much that i didn't eat, and i was in tears when we got home. i haven't really talked to her since earlier when it happened but i'll be talkin to her in the morning. We aren't going to be doing anything on Easter tomorrow and John asked me if it was okay if he asked my mom if we could hang together then. I told him to call my mom and hopefully she says yes.

I can tell when John is having a relativly crappy day because mine are kinda the same. It sounds weird but it's true, and I am starting to learn how to not be so paranoid with things. I just hope that i can be a good enough girlfriend for him... sometime i feel like i'm not but i hope i am.

i love you john, always <3