dont want to lose you

My stomach ties itself in a knot,
The thoughts in my head keep spinning,
Though I try to stop,
I try to speak,
but I cannot,
the sounds come out weak,
choked and cut off.

The pain of the thoughts,
of being without you,
wash over me,
each thought killing me anew.

Tears sting my eyes,
as I finally cry out,
pain wells up inside me,
I find strength to shout.

Dont leave me!
I scream,
Im lost without you,
Your everything I need,
without you im nothing.

I hold my head in my hands,
hoping and praying,
that you hear,
these last words i whisper,
I cant lose you my dear.